Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Very Unexpected

You guys, I don't even know how to say all that I have to say. It's great and then it's not. On Sunday I took a home pregnancy test. It was postive. IT WAS POSITIVE! Monday I called the OB/GYN. I got to experience a random postive. I got to be surprised that bding = baby! But then Monday afternoon I stopped 'feeling' pregnant. I started bleeding. ANd that's where I'm at now. I'll call the OB tomorrow tell her what happened. I can't imagine that I'm still pregnant. While my boobs are still sore, I am having what I would consider a *normal* cycle. If I hadn't have tested, I wouldn't even think my period was weird, just one day late. Obviously I have more to post about this and thousands of emotions, everything from elation to heavy greif. I've never miscarried before. A 3 year journey didn't provide any BFP's before, just blank tests. I cannot imagine the pain you all feel to be far along in a pregnancy only to lose the baby, so for that, I can now empathize. I know that if I have to miscarry this is the best scenario. And I know that God is still Glorified in this situation. I just recently took the name "drama" off this blog title. Baby Mama. Maybe I should add the drama back in. I'll post more when I know more.

4 comments:

manymanymoons said...

I'm so sorry. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss. I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way today.

Flower said...

My heart filled with so many emotions for you. A BFP with doing just plain old having sex...it beyond words of joy. Then as I read, you mentioned that you were bleeding. We are not going to be negative...we will have faith that your LO continues to grow. There are so many people that bleed in their pregnancy. We will not let the devil still your joy. This is truly a blessing. Praying that God will keep this little one safe no matter the outcome. Praying for good news...I will be stalking this blog for an update :) Hang in there.

Deanna said...

Praying for you! That must have been quite the surprise!

Ashley said...

Oh wow, praying for you!