Tuesday, April 5, 2011
You guys, I don't even know how to say all that I have to say. It's great and then it's not. On Sunday I took a home pregnancy test. It was postive. IT WAS POSITIVE! Monday I called the OB/GYN. I got to experience a random postive. I got to be surprised that bding = baby! But then Monday afternoon I stopped 'feeling' pregnant. I started bleeding. ANd that's where I'm at now. I'll call the OB tomorrow tell her what happened. I can't imagine that I'm still pregnant. While my boobs are still sore, I am having what I would consider a *normal* cycle. If I hadn't have tested, I wouldn't even think my period was weird, just one day late. Obviously I have more to post about this and thousands of emotions, everything from elation to heavy greif. I've never miscarried before. A 3 year journey didn't provide any BFP's before, just blank tests. I cannot imagine the pain you all feel to be far along in a pregnancy only to lose the baby, so for that, I can now empathize. I know that if I have to miscarry this is the best scenario. And I know that God is still Glorified in this situation. I just recently took the name "drama" off this blog title. Baby Mama. Maybe I should add the drama back in. I'll post more when I know more.