Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I'd Rather Go Out Swinging

Today I went back to the RE's office. I have to say, so far, I really love the staff there. I don't see the Dr. very much, but that's okay because the nurses are so together and with it I don't feel like I need to. I also know that if I do need to, I can just call and schedule an appointment.
So, here are the follicles (sp?) this month: drum roll...
On the right (good ovary) we have a lovely 18 mm black circle.
On the left (less than good but not bad ovary) one 25 mm, one 21 mm, and one 19 mm.
That right, four follicles. Clomid goes well with my ovaries.
So before I get all happy and excited, the nurse takes my hand (with a camera in my special no-no place mind you) and gives me the scary triplet talk. Have any of you had this? It's scary.
She says that a triplet pregnancy is almost a 50% higher risk than a twin pregnancy. She asked if I would reduce ... heck no!
She said I would have to have a tremendous support system. All things I agree with. And what do you suppose my answer was?
Bring on the Hcg trigger!
Here is my reasoning:
1. June was 2 full years, 24 cycles of trying for us. I appear to ovulate normally. We are not pregnant and it is not explained. I often feel like if it was going to happen, it already would have (only on my more pessimistic days do I feel that way).
2. Considering the above, I'm really feeling like this is taking four cycles and slamming them into one. A shot to try four times but only taking up one month. This works for me!
3. I want a family. 3 kids would be a blessing. 2 kids would be a blessing. But I'm praying for 1 kid. I'll take whatever God gives me. The way I figure, God chose to grow all 4 of those follicles and this was his plan. If I get a baby this month, awesome. If I don't, then at least I won't have wasted this cycle.
It's like being up to bat. I can wait for the perfect pitch and watch my chance fly by, or I can take a swing and at least say I tried. My coach used to say, 'it's better to go out swinging than looking'.


Earl Gearl said...

4 follicles is great! I made four my first and third cycles and three my second and fourth cycles. Clomid goes well with my ovaries, also. I say, the more targets, the better! Of course, your RE may beg to differ with me! Good luck!

Leslie Laine said...

Best of luck to you, Courtney! Four follicles is great, and I definitely agree - the more the better!

We are sitting this month out and getting ready to pursue IVF in August. We have our consultation appt. with the RE tomorrow to discuss IVF, so I'll keep you posted.

Best to you!! Hopefully, this is the month!

Courtney said...

YAY!!!! how exciting!! baby dust!