Yesterday AF came. We tried 'naturally' this month so of course there wasn't a surprise when she came, but I'm still stuck on the odds. Never have we had even a positive home test. It's so weird. He's okay, I'm okay. Us together = no baby... I don't get it. I get that I need to continue to rely on God and to continue to believe that each month this could be it. But each month keeps passing without success.
But I still have my perspective. On Christmas eve one of my former principals was in a car accident and his wife was killed and he is still in the hospital.
On Thursday one of my closest friends dad was killed in a car accident.
Life is so precious and so short. Baby or no baby, I'm just happy to know that I'm living life everyday. I want a baby and I'm not hiding it. I hope I can hold on to these reminders of the preciousness of life. It's so easy to forget how fragile our world is.
Okay, so it's on to Clomid and then if no jury duty I'm going to have a folicle check on Monday 19th. Here's to hoping!